Sometimes you really piss me off so much i wanna laugh and cry and shake you and give you one big fat kiss.




 things happened, bad things happened. but im glad we're still strong as a couple and we're still sticking together through this whole shitstorm of emotions called a 'relationship'. i've never had any grudges against you. never. i've hated you, but after awhile, all that hate just melts away cause i realise how empty life would be without you. and that you're the reason for all that i am right here, today. yeah, even though you always tell me to control my temper and calm down and all. sometimes you are the one who sets it off. ahaha! its like you telling me not to shit, while shit is dripping out of your asshole. get it?! no words can describe how i feel about you. i feel like shouting at you. pinching your nose. hugging you. patting you to sleep. i feel like carrying you and swinging you round and round. you just drive me so crazy. crazy over you. i'll never think of revenge, my feelings have never and will not fade. because when i told you that i wont give up no matter what, and that i'll always love you. i really meant it. they say the eyes are the windows to the soul and i dont know if you can actually see that i mean it, in my eyes. but then again, sometimes im pajiao, so its pretty hard to see into my eyes as well. heehee! yeah well, real glad things are fine now. though i really hope that crap wont happen again. hurts man. it really hurts. but all the pain in the world is worth it, just to see you smile. just to see that twinkle in your eyes. just to be able to see you and hold you, and to know that you are mine. if bruno mars will catch a grenade for the girl he loves, bloody hell man bi, i'll catch a army tank. nah, i'll catch the whole world. remember what i told you? even if no one gives a shit bout you and you feel that you're falling into hopelessness, i'll be there to bounce you back up with my bouncy bouncy belly! <3 and yeah, you're so busy today that i feel neglected. pfft. i fucking hate you today la! cb! bet you'll see or saw my status-es already. sorry man bi, babu feels neglected and lonely while baby is out there with her friends! and baby seems so eager to hang the phone all, baby also like so busy till wont see or reply babu's message sometimes. babu dont like! babu angry man! babu feels like when baby got friends, babu is no longer existing. like babu die already. like baby got friends then babu is invisible. i know i know, maybe im thinking too much! but I DONT LIKE! deal with it. heheh, i love you man, i can't wait to see you tmr! i love you ! <3<3<3<3<3<3




peepopeepopeepo! 

happy 7th month, Elleen Tan! <3


Hey, we met online. we've been through lots of shit,tears and of course happiness! and this is our 7th month!


7th month, like finally. this month really seems like a long time. i dont know why! haha, well, spent it in a simple way, counted down to 12am with baby on facetime, well, kinda sucked cause this is actually the first time we've had to countdown without each other by our sides. but at least i can get to see baby's face! haha,baby came over today, and we didnt do much, fetched her at khatib mrt. bus-ed back and slept. what a boring way to spend our 7th month right! haha, but when you're so in love with one another, nothing else really matters as long as you've got each other's company! right baby? haha, though i would love to bring you to jack's place and go on a shopping spree till our legs break from walking and arms break from carrying shit-loads of stuff, i cant. D: well, believe me, when i have the capabilities, i will. and till then, at least we've got each other! im so glad i made you my girlf. been saying this for so long and i bet you hear till sian already! but what to do? i mean it ma! :) happy 7th month my dear girl! i love you!

BEST, cant even describe all this.



haha! 7th month in a day's time! wow! 7 months man! seems like yesterday that we added each other on tagged.com and sent each other messages. we were both so eager to see each other's reply. got together the next day somemore! online romance+getting tgt after knowing each other for a few hours=failure? FUCK YOU MAN! look at where we're now! i honestly never knew an online relationship could bring me this far. in fact, its not even an online relationship anymore. it's our life :D and even though we don't know each other at all in the beginning, we stuck through ups and downs. the stormiest of storms, the most fucked up of quarrels and we still pulled through! and we got to know each other better along the way. we can play like crazy and talk about anything under the sun. we can even act like kids in front of one another. sometimes it's like we're best friends, sometimes it's like i'm the kid and you're the mum. and sometimes we're boyf and girlf. all these goes to show that you're not just my girlf man, you're my everything :) some people may think or say that we wouldn't make it, but for every month that passes, it just goes to show that what other people think or say, doesnt mean shit. as long as we ourselves know what we want, and go about doing it! and this relationship is exactly what we want! right baby? i know that i've got a bad attitude and all, but thanks for giving me countless chances and for always being by my side to support me through tough times. you've never really asked much of me. except to control my temper. and i will! and im doing it! you're the sweetest fatty i've ever known! and i dont give a fuck if you're 100 kg or super ugly, cause you'll always be that beautiful girl with the cute button nose and chinless chin! haha! peepo peepo! and have i told you how much i love it whenever you act cute with me? haha! awww, saying and thinking bout all this is making me miss you more, which is already words-can't-describe kinda miss!  heh, 7th month in a few hour's time! i love you baby! whatever happens, i'll always be here for you. i'll be the short and fat cute boy that you can count on. cause if you fall, you can always bounce back up on my tummy! <3 

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Testing


Hello!

Just like yesterday




looking back, so much stuff happened. yet it seems as if we got together only yesterday. but this coming week, will be our 7th month tgt. no words can describe how much you mean to me, or how much i love you. they say one mountain is taller than the other. but i dont care man, im fully contended with this fat round mountain! love is like a journey. and our journey wont end man, ever! there's still much more to be done and experienced. what makes me look forward to it, is that i'll be experiencing it with you, and no one else. :) i love you, fatty fatty bom bom! 

Around the corner.


finally met baby today after a long week of not meeting! trust me man, this week took forever to pass. had a few tiffs here and there, but everything's alright. i guess that after so long with baby, i've learnt to take quarrels easier, cause i really hate it when we quarrel, so i want it to be over asap! haha! ate curry rice with baby at bendemeer market. fucking good i swear. then bus-ed back home, and went to collect baby's bag and wallet from a blogshop owner. who just happens to stay across the road! ahaha! went to admiralty for dinner after that, had claypot while baby ate thai style chicken rice. simple day luh, but everything's enjoyable, as long as baby's by my side! love baby ttm! hehe, now we're watching the fourth kind! haha, gonna go enjoy show le! 

you think you're the only one?



you're just gonna let it slip through like that? sitting on the fence whole day? and i thought that after the long message you sent, things might slowly get better, but they seem to be going worse? or maybe they're not. i really dont want you or i to give up. but its making me sick man, seeing you like this. i know i know, its my fault that things turned out this way. but how long are you gonna stay like this? shouldnt we just overcome this already? i love you man, and im really afraid you'll think stupid or even get angry after reading this. but this is how i feelm and it's so fucking hard to even get this across to you. fuck it man, fuck it. cb.

Gone.



it's over. everything, gone. just like that. maybe you and i were'nt meant to be ba. but all the happy times spent together doesnt really tell me that. our late night cycling, our jokes, our fun, the time when we saw fireworks tgt. and so many more. even now, compared to this, our quarrels feel like happy times too. i really wished you didnt give up. i wished i hadn't walked away just now. but all of this seems fated ba. 6 months, is a very long time for the both of us. as your longest is only a pathetic 1 month plus. haha. but now, 6 months feels so short. i wish we could have spent more time tgt. like i told you just now, i've so many things to say to you, but i dont know how to. and now i wont even have the chance to. even if you choose to forget me, remember the good stuff that i've told you ba. but one thing's for sure, i wont forget you. at all. tonight's gonna be a long night. 

cherishing you, till the end of time.



today's sat! hehe. and baby's coming over after sending her nephew to tuition and bringing him back.aww, i cant fucking wait man! a day without baby isnt even a day man! ahah. sch's re-opening coming monday. its a new year, hopefully i'll have a new start. dont wanna end up slacking off halfway. 2nd year already, also means job attachment this year. hah, 18 already man. kinda hard to accept the fact that im 18. still feel 17 though. hah! well, had a fun night with richard, and co. talked about the old times, laughed our asses off. they got drunk and i ended up taking care of richard, bringing him to the toilet all. like a babysitter man. he said many stupid things along the way luh. ahah, fucking funny man. it's been real long since i slacked with them. kinda miss those times. oh well, main point! baby's coming later le! ahaha, cant stop thinking bout it. really damn looking forward to it man! that silly girl hasnt slept the whole night somemore. tsk tsk! oh well, i love you baby! <3

shocked.



gim texted me to call him. and i did. they said they wanted to meet cause they were bored. i agreed. i went to bathe and stuff. was on web sms with baby, she told me she's waiting for the bus. i told her i was going out and that im gonna go bathe. turns out she asked me not to bathe first, but i already went. bathed and gim texted me saying he reached. i called baby to tell her im leaving house and she said she reached home already. so i changed and left house. opened up my yard gate and walked out, saw no one. thought that gim was waiting at side gate, so started to walk there. someone 'choot-ed' me so i turned around and saw somebody peeping at me behind the wall at the carpark, i thought it was cassandra. i walked over and suddenly, baby jumped out from behind a car. i was bloody shocked man. i really didnt expect it. i swear i stood there for a few secs. mouth hanging open. haha, it was a fucking awesome surprise indeed. thanks baby for having the heart. i didnt know you actually rushed down the moment you saw my blog. i really really really didnt expect that from you! :/ i love you man, i really do. hugged you the moment we reached my room. i've been missing you like crazy uh! and now you're snoring like a pig behind me, with saliva all over. it's just like the good times all over again. i love you. :)

Suddenly, i'm not so sure anymore.



things feel like they've changed. everything was going so great, up till recently. you can't even tell me whether you have confidence in our relationship anymore. or whether your feelings will fade. all you can tell me is a 'idk'. and all this is after i gave in to you. i thought that by giving in, i could be a better boyf, and you'll be happier. but if me giving in means that you'll change. then i'd rather not. i just want the both of us to be happy and feel like the old times. but lately, i don't know why, i feel like you've become different. what are you really thinking?  and you used to always if not most of the time text me whenever i'm sleeping or something saying that you miss me and stuff. but now, not anymore. guess it's cause you're so busy and all with friends. so maybe those texts were cause you're bored? lol. maybe im thinking too much, maybe im not. i dont even know which is which. i just feel so lost. and after hearing your answers today, my faith in our relationship is not as strong as it used to be. i have a million questions in my head and i dont even know how to get them out of my mouth. but not saying anything is making me feel worse. it's like hell all over again. i already stepped back a step, i really hope you won't eat me 2 or 3 steps. lol, get what i mean? and when i said that i'll go slack with a group of girls, your reaction was that if i wanted to be like this, then continue for what. lol. the fucked up thing is you and i know i wont go and do it. i'll just say only. i feel fucking pathetic and useless.