Angus, 18. Family & lovely Girlfriend!
27 June 2010, not gonna end.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Goodbye.


hopefully fate will bring us tgt again ba :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Letting go of myself.


 i've lost the fight. i'd rather let go of myself than let go of us. alot of things i dont like, all with a reason. but i guess as long as you know your limits can le la. but obviously i hope, (and i hope you know) that stuff like this doesnt always happen, as in, stuff that makes both parties upset.you gave in alot to me, but that doesnt mean i never give in to you too. im giving in as well, so please dont take more and more. these nights i've been feeling down and as a result, i did this did that. i really feel like a fool. i dont even know why i'll do something like that. i dont even know who i am anymore. but all i know, is that i love you. no matter how tough, how hard the fight is, i wont give up. i would rather die trying than not try at all. i hope you see how much you mean to me.and you know that i nag cause i care. alot of times you always say that even your parents dont nag or say anything, so why should i? after all, im just your boyf right? yeah, i know i am, but i want the best for you. like what i say, knowing full well what kind of guy i used to be, and how i fucking take advantage of girls, that's why i dont like you to talk or meet or be surrounded by guys.and it's all because i know about what happened to you last time all, that's why im worried.i really dont want your history to repeat itself.i know you wont, you'll know how to think, but those guys, they dont give a fuck. you know it too. mmm, if your parents knew about all those things that happened to you last time, do you think they wont say anything each time you go out all? just a thought luh.unless you tell me they know la, then i have nth to say. and  like, the saiful thing,if you never entertain and continue talking with him, would that have happened? you know he wanted to hong you, you know he got girlf already,and the result? you know that at least you still got people want, that's why you she de to dont want me. You and this relationship really means the whole world  to me. i feel so lost without you by my side. without your laughter, your hugs and kisses all. sad to say, i've fallen so much for you that whenever you say break, my whole world just crumbles. and i cry and beg like a dog. yeah, i love you luh. i really do. i really dont wanna quarrel with you anymore. i just want to be happy with you, everyday. for all the days of our lives.



dont say that im making myself so xinku, its not. its only xinku without you, trust me. yeah sure, we've had many ups and downs. but you cant deny that our smiles after all those shit aint real. we really do share tears,joy,laughter and everything together. love is not about who's suited for who. nobody is 100% suited for another person. love is about the bond between two strangers. that bond makes them into who they are, who we are. 7 months ago, would you be willing to cook mac and cheese for a stranger called Angus Teo? you wouldn't. would i be willing to cry and cry and buy flowers for a stranger called Eileen Tan? why would i?this is what i mean, we've gone through so much together that its impossible to feel as if we're strangers. even though it only seems like yesterday that we just met, i love you.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Famous Blogger & Famous Blogger Boyf


feb now, cny, how fast time flies. few more days to my birthday. fucking fast.year by year passes like nobody's business. i'm 18 already.haha! baby came over on wed. went home on thur. then came over again on fri,till today. ): really wish she didnt have to go back! fucking hate it! so anyway, went to qianhui's house to bainian and had reunion dinner with both sides of the family. took a few pics. but yeah, awesome time. did nth much with baby, stayed at home and spent time tgt as usual. went mos yesterday night. its been quite sometime since we went. but the person got my order wrong! instead of a spicy cheeseburger, i got a spicy hotdog? haha, was delicious anyway. and today, went to sunplaza for lunch and gai gai with baby! baby bought a screen protector which only costs 4.80! but the downside? you have to stick it on yourself! so we went home and i tried, cause i wanted to help baby ma! but the end result is fucking ugly and has lots of bubbles. like an iphone with aids or something. ahahah! so decided to go to woodlands mart to buy another one from a handphone shop and get the people to stick it for us! actually asked baby to stay home and wait, but she wanted to accompany me! so the quest for the protector started! walked all the way to woodlands mart, protector fucking costs 18 bucks! so ex! so we walked one big round,got lost, and wound up at admiralty.shop closed! so we bus-ed to 888 and after a long day, finally got a dual-sided protector for baby! 15 bucks only! both sides! more wuhua. hahaha. came back home and ate, mum and dad cooked! then played around with baby, and finally baby had to go home! really hate times like this. and one of the days, baby actually told me that got ppl read her blog, so she is famous blogger! that's exactly what she said, so i've been calling her that! fucking cute luh! and yeah, really hate it when baby has to go home. empty bed,empty house,empty room. so full of shit! cant wait till friday to see baby again know! hais!

sillygirl! you're the first girlf i spent xmas and the new year's with! and also gonna be the first to spend valentine's day with as well! please dont think silly and stupid stuff, cause i'll always be here loving you! no matter what, i wont give up! however hard the obstacles are,we must pull through okay! cause if we had given up previously,we wouldn't be here now! and here we are! as happy as ever! or maybe even more! see! im real glad we didnt give up! my heart's always your's. no matter where we are. or what happens. you'll always have a special place in my heart, my dear famous blogger. that smile of your's, that cute face. everything. even till the end of time, i'll always remember. <3 i love you.















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