cherishing you, till the end of time.
today's sat! hehe. and baby's coming over after sending her nephew to tuition and bringing him back.aww, i cant fucking wait man! a day without baby isnt even a day man! ahah. sch's re-opening coming monday. its a new year, hopefully i'll have a new start. dont wanna end up slacking off halfway. 2nd year already, also means job attachment this year. hah, 18 already man. kinda hard to accept the fact that im 18. still feel 17 though. hah! well, had a fun night with richard, and co. talked about the old times, laughed our asses off. they got drunk and i ended up taking care of richard, bringing him to the toilet all. like a babysitter man. he said many stupid things along the way luh. ahah, fucking funny man. it's been real long since i slacked with them. kinda miss those times. oh well, main point! baby's coming later le! ahaha, cant stop thinking bout it. really damn looking forward to it man! that silly girl hasnt slept the whole night somemore. tsk tsk! oh well, i love you baby! <3
Friday, January 7, 2011
shocked.
gim texted me to call him. and i did. they said they wanted to meet cause they were bored. i agreed. i went to bathe and stuff. was on web sms with baby, she told me she's waiting for the bus. i told her i was going out and that im gonna go bathe. turns out she asked me not to bathe first, but i already went. bathed and gim texted me saying he reached. i called baby to tell her im leaving house and she said she reached home already. so i changed and left house. opened up my yard gate and walked out, saw no one. thought that gim was waiting at side gate, so started to walk there. someone 'choot-ed' me so i turned around and saw somebody peeping at me behind the wall at the carpark, i thought it was cassandra. i walked over and suddenly, baby jumped out from behind a car. i was bloody shocked man. i really didnt expect it. i swear i stood there for a few secs. mouth hanging open. haha, it was a fucking awesome surprise indeed. thanks baby for having the heart. i didnt know you actually rushed down the moment you saw my blog. i really really really didnt expect that from you! :/ i love you man, i really do. hugged you the moment we reached my room. i've been missing you like crazy uh! and now you're snoring like a pig behind me, with saliva all over. it's just like the good times all over again. i love you. :)
gim texted me to call him. and i did. they said they wanted to meet cause they were bored. i agreed. i went to bathe and stuff. was on web sms with baby, she told me she's waiting for the bus. i told her i was going out and that im gonna go bathe. turns out she asked me not to bathe first, but i already went. bathed and gim texted me saying he reached. i called baby to tell her im leaving house and she said she reached home already. so i changed and left house. opened up my yard gate and walked out, saw no one. thought that gim was waiting at side gate, so started to walk there. someone 'choot-ed' me so i turned around and saw somebody peeping at me behind the wall at the carpark, i thought it was cassandra. i walked over and suddenly, baby jumped out from behind a car. i was bloody shocked man. i really didnt expect it. i swear i stood there for a few secs. mouth hanging open. haha, it was a fucking awesome surprise indeed. thanks baby for having the heart. i didnt know you actually rushed down the moment you saw my blog. i really really really didnt expect that from you! :/ i love you man, i really do. hugged you the moment we reached my room. i've been missing you like crazy uh! and now you're snoring like a pig behind me, with saliva all over. it's just like the good times all over again. i love you. :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Suddenly, i'm not so sure anymore.
things feel like they've changed. everything was going so great, up till recently. you can't even tell me whether you have confidence in our relationship anymore. or whether your feelings will fade. all you can tell me is a 'idk'. and all this is after i gave in to you. i thought that by giving in, i could be a better boyf, and you'll be happier. but if me giving in means that you'll change. then i'd rather not. i just want the both of us to be happy and feel like the old times. but lately, i don't know why, i feel like you've become different. what are you really thinking? and you used to always if not most of the time text me whenever i'm sleeping or something saying that you miss me and stuff. but now, not anymore. guess it's cause you're so busy and all with friends. so maybe those texts were cause you're bored? lol. maybe im thinking too much, maybe im not. i dont even know which is which. i just feel so lost. and after hearing your answers today, my faith in our relationship is not as strong as it used to be. i have a million questions in my head and i dont even know how to get them out of my mouth. but not saying anything is making me feel worse. it's like hell all over again. i already stepped back a step, i really hope you won't eat me 2 or 3 steps. lol, get what i mean? and when i said that i'll go slack with a group of girls, your reaction was that if i wanted to be like this, then continue for what. lol. the fucked up thing is you and i know i wont go and do it. i'll just say only. i feel fucking pathetic and useless.
things feel like they've changed. everything was going so great, up till recently. you can't even tell me whether you have confidence in our relationship anymore. or whether your feelings will fade. all you can tell me is a 'idk'. and all this is after i gave in to you. i thought that by giving in, i could be a better boyf, and you'll be happier. but if me giving in means that you'll change. then i'd rather not. i just want the both of us to be happy and feel like the old times. but lately, i don't know why, i feel like you've become different. what are you really thinking? and you used to always if not most of the time text me whenever i'm sleeping or something saying that you miss me and stuff. but now, not anymore. guess it's cause you're so busy and all with friends. so maybe those texts were cause you're bored? lol. maybe im thinking too much, maybe im not. i dont even know which is which. i just feel so lost. and after hearing your answers today, my faith in our relationship is not as strong as it used to be. i have a million questions in my head and i dont even know how to get them out of my mouth. but not saying anything is making me feel worse. it's like hell all over again. i already stepped back a step, i really hope you won't eat me 2 or 3 steps. lol, get what i mean? and when i said that i'll go slack with a group of girls, your reaction was that if i wanted to be like this, then continue for what. lol. the fucked up thing is you and i know i wont go and do it. i'll just say only. i feel fucking pathetic and useless.
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